El Roi The God Who Sees

El ROI - The God Who Sees

Genesis 16:13

¹³ She gave this name to the LORD who spoke to her: "You are the God who sees me," for she said, "I have now seen ^[c] the One who sees me."

A few months ago, I facilitated a bible study by Beth Moore called "The Patriarchs". Not only did I learn a lot about the history of our Patriarchs but I learned a lot about our God. Things that I might have known in my heart and mind but now have scripture to prove it.

My God is a God who sees me. Never has this been more evident to me than in the last couple of years. He saw my mourning of the loss of my mother. He saw the struggle I had learning to submit to my husband. He saw the pain and hurt I felt when a dear friend and I had to break our friendship. He saw the desire I had to minister to women. He even sees that I am learning to trust Him ever day with my children. He knows when I am so angry that I want to walk away from it all. He sees when I am mourning with a friend who is going through a loss. He sees when I am rejoicing with a friend who is rejoicing over His blessing to them. He sees it all. He even sees when I am at my wits end with my aunt but knowing all along that I will continue to love her.

He has seen my past and He knows my future. He has seen me stumble and fall and get back up again. He has seen me cry out to Him in all kinds of situations. He sees my struggles, my victories. He sees my heart, when it is right and when it is not. He sees it all.

But lately it is I who sees Him. I am paying attention to the way He is working around me, in me and through me. For example, those children of mine, when I am struggling to make sense of them He gives me a glimpse of what they could be. He reminds me that they really belong to Him and I am just a willing vessel trying to be a good steward of them. Teaching them and training them in His ways. Praying for them, rebuking them, correcting them. When I feel like a failure He allows me to see my youngest son reading His word before he goes to bed and my youngest daughter kneeling with her daddy praying for him before he shares His word. Or how about my oldest daughter taking a leap of faith and singing in front of the church for His glory. How about my oldest declaring his faith for all to see. Yes, my God sees my struggles and then He shows me what He can do if I would only open my eyes and see.

Then there is the retreat that I was asked to organize. To be honest after all I had went through I never thought that I would be the one organizing it. But, God is God and I did. He saw my desire and He granted it to me if only I would be willing to trust Him, lean on Him and believe that He is capable of anything. How awed I was to see that He used me, broken old me, to plan it and have so many women be blessed by it. He organized it really not me, I was just the vessel willing to be used.

To be really transparent, how about my marriage? He saw my desire to have a healthy, godly marriage. One that was reliant on Him and a witness to others. If only I would trust Him, submit to Him and my husband. I have seen a transformed man and in the process a strengthened marriage. I have been willing to be used.

My God saw the brokenness of my heart over a couple of friendships. He saw the pain and hurt, the struggle I had just to pass them in the church with my head held high reminding myself that I am His child and if I called myself His child then I would have to love them and forgive them and ask for forgiveness as well. I saw that He is a God that not only sees me but also is a God of restoration and over and over again He has proved to be faithful in that. Tonight, I saw my God open the door to healing like I have never seen before. I am weeping before Him and praising His Holy name. He is El Roi, the God who sees.

He is the God who sees me and He sees you as well. He sees the pain of broken relationships. He sees the loss of a loved one. He sees the daily struggles you have. He sees the tears you cry when no one else is looking. He sees the desires of your heart that no one else knows about. He sees the hurt of unresolved issues. He sees it all. The question is, will you see Him working through it all? Will you see Him walking with you in the good, the bad and the ugly? Oh my dear friend, will you be willing to allow Him to work it out through you? He is willing, are you?